This must be what crazy feels like
A lot of things I want to do marriage and settling down would just complicate. Plus I really like being free and having nothing to tie me down. I’m not sure I’m ready to give that up yet.
Pro gamer, dancer who goes on tour with DSP / Nega Network (in a larger dance company), music video director (for YG and other companies), pro soccer player for one of Korea’s many teams, actor, model (though I wouldn’t consider him “famous”)… That’s it pretty much.
No one G-Dragon famous! Semi-famous people. Like famous in different niche genres of entertainment. Yeah I can’t name names of course. I can say what they do, but that’s about it.
I need to date a normal guy. I need my head examined. I wish I could switch brains with someone who thinks logically.
But I can’t help it. I’m only attracted to models and actors and people with very high profile jobs. And this always results in trouble / misunderstandings / scheduling conflicts, etc.
I admit 100% there is a stupidity line I crossed a long time ago. And I can’t seem to get back on the other side.
It’s white, fluffy frozen stuff!!!
I’ve never seen snow fall like that except on TV. I wanna touch it.
Thanks! :) Ah no I didn’t cut it. I’ve been wearing extensions. My real hair hasn’t been long in forever! Years I think…
It’s been awhile since I upped a selca! This is me and another tumblr girl ya’ll might know. Pre-clubbing photos. Post-clubbing photos are just a terrible, hazardous mess.
I went to Artbox today and bought a wide variety of colored pencils! Time to sketch children’s clothes and then (with luck) get quotes for materials and seamstresses (I can’t sew, but I’ll pay the agreed upon price).
Sooo I went out with the lovely ahjumma who helps my class… And I thought we were just gonna get dinner!!
She pulls her car into a church parking lot.
Oh lord… (literally)
She tricked me!!
So we go inside and I meet these absolutely lovely people. They offer me food right off the bat. And then they show me this charming exhibition which is all about memories of their moms, like the church members. I kind of have this soft fascination for Korea back in the day… Not Joseon era Korea. I’m talking about 60’s, 70’s Korea. It’s a lot harder to see things from that time than Joseon era ironically.
And I learned some pretty interesting things.
Like when boys peed their pants back in the day, moms made them wear this basket on their head and walk into town wearing it. The basket is like a “I peed in my bed” sign. So anyone who saw it was like “Oh you poor thing. Here, have some salt.” Salt was expensive so the basket was like a tool to embarrass their kid / get salt for free.
Didn’t know that! So that’s one more historical quirk to log away.
Plus (and I didn’t know this either) if you hold your chopsticks with your fingers close to your food apparently that means you’ll get married in your mom’s hometown (aka - you’re gonna live near your mom). And if you use chopsticks with your fingers far, far from the food - you’ll get married far away.
So according to that, I’m not getting married here…
This is all very nice! But the disturbing part of this visit was when they showed me a video about their church.
It started out SO nicely - coffee, cookies, hotteok. And then I was asked, “Can I show you a video about our church?”
So, yes, I thought this was a church. I thought I understood most demominations. I do not. Especially when I have a strong, tingling sense that the denomination is actually a cult. But a very kind one!
But it seems to me that their teachings are trying to rush the book of Revelation (for non Bible-readers - that would be the end of the world chapter) into reality. The reality to me is - no one knows when the world will end and you can’t predict that or turn innocuous events into fulfilled prophecies from scripture.
One of their beliefs is that the “Mother” (God) dwells in an actual person, Zahng-Gil-Jah, and it’s scary to see people sighting “I trust in the teachings of our Mother.” “I came to see the Heavenly Mother.” She’s a very, rich old woman yes. But she’s not God.
This church encourages pilgrimages (cool- yes! for traveling) to pray and congregate with her (no).
I thought Jesus Camp was scary. The video is really similar to North Korean propaganda - all toothy smiles, sychronised waves, and everyone is at peace and looks happy! Like a 1950’s billboard ad.
The church also believes that Christ came not too long ago and so instead of Jesus Christ or Jesus Cristo or Jehova or Yahweh they worship Christ Ahnsahnghong. Oh I’d like to say Ahnsahnghong is the Korean word for Jesus Christ, but no - this was an actual person.
I’m so against people-worship that the whole thing kind of made me feel a bit ill.
One of the girls witnessed to me about how the Bible prophecies about this “Mother” character. She knew every page where to find the verses, like clockwork. And she almost had me convinced, but… I know that no one on this green, beautiful Earth is deserving of being worshipped by thousands of people. it’s scary how much she believes it. I want to say “She’s not your Mother. She doesn’t deserve your money.” But then I’d be preaching.
And they’re such nice people! I have really mixed feelings. I could hang out with them more and just ignore the cult beliefs / practices. I don’t want to destroy their beliefs, but they need lemon squirted in their eyes!! Volunteerism, kindness, all good things! Worshipping regular people = no, no, no. No!
Ohhh, it’s my beliefs against their’s.
The sad thing is you can walk into a cult like this and no one will judge you for how you look. Whether you’re fat or disheveled, no one cares.
I imagine in Seoul that kind of acceptance is rare.
Keep in mind dear readers, a lot of us are foreigners. We can never speak with the same authority as someone who was born and raised in Korea can. We won’t ever know, no matter how much we think we know, just how much pressure there is on appearance.
It’s nice to see, albeit their belief system could use some tweaking, a place where the pressure isn’t nearly as daunting. For that reason I can understand why a church like this would be attractive to people here.